Beautiful Again

by Zru Vogue

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Rick Cuevas and Andrew L. Jackson have played music together on and off since they were teenagers in the mid-1970’s, but they achieved cult status with their 80’s bands Zru Vogue ("Nakweda Dream," "Cumulonimbus") and Science Patrol ("Bandit Ducks From Outer Space"). 



ZRU is an acronym for Zero Risk Unobtainable, something they grabbed at random from a newspaper headline in 1978. But Zruism is also a state of mind inspired by Dadaism; a way of looking at the world sideways, so that everything becomes much clearer, although somewhat askew.

And that's how Zru Vogue goes about writing, arranging and producing their songs. They use intuition, intention, chance, metaphor, poetry, and other important, arty, and useless things to create, construct, deconstruct, restructure, and piece together ideas from dreams and life (real and imagined) to make songs with depth, texture, and original style.

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released June 27, 2004

Rick Cuevas: Bass, synthesizer and keyboards, electric and acoustic guitars, e-bow, backing vocals, digital drums, percussion
Andrew L. Jackson: Vocals, electric and acoustic guitars, keyboards, drum loops, percussion

All songs written by Andrew L. Jackson. All songs arranged and produced by Andrew L. Jackson and Rick Cuevas. Engineered by Rick Cuevas.

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Zru Vogue San Francisco, California

Avant-Pop, Art-Funk, Surrealist Indie Rock from the San Francisco Bay Area. Zru Vogue's first single "Nakweda Dream" (1981) is an early post-punk classic. Band members Andrew Lawrence Jackson, Rick Cuevas, and Patrick Coyne continue to create inspired new music for postmoderns. ... more

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Track Name: The Illusionist
Lyrics:

This is a beginning and a middle and an end
Nothing here is real it’s make believe and let’s pretend
Life is like a game in which nobody knows the rules
Why we’re here and where we’re heading on this ship of fools

Life is an illusion but the ghost of it is real
It isn’t so much what you think as how it makes you feel
You can place a piece of art in public on display
You can turn it off but you can’t make it go away

Changes made along the way and everywhere between
Clues are everywhere but no one knows just what they mean
See beyond the here and now but not into the soul
Life is in the baby steps you take to reach your goal

You can mix a metaphor and not say what you did it for
You can lose a round and then go on to take the game
Make a choice and take a chance or just sit back and wait
You are who you are and you’re the master of your fate

Changes made along the way and everywhere between
Clues are everywhere but no one knows just what they mean
See beyond the here and now but not into the soul
Life is in the baby steps you take to reach your goal
--
Lyrics ©2002 Andrew L. Jackson
Track Name: Waited So Long
Lyrics:

This is where I build on what I’ve earned
This is where I cross all the bridges I’ve burned
This is where Life intersects with Art
This is where the barriers fall apart

This is where the old gives way to the new
This is a beginning and an ending too
This is where I cash in and collect
This is where Then and Now intersect

I’ve waited so long to get to this place
Tracing each new line on my face
I’ve waited so long for this moment to come
Just want to go out and get me some

These are the days that would one day come
These are the nights when my mind goes numb
This is the place I wanted to be
This is the face that once was me

Life’s about change, and there’s no way around it
The world can be strange but I’m glad that I found it
Mystery and wonder, laughter and tears
Discovery, recovery, hopes and fears
But what have I learned in all these years?

No one knows what they’re doing here; it’s not just you and me
Life is still a mystery, and always will be
If you can’t make sense of anything, take solace in the knowing
Nothing makes sense anyway, so get on with where you’re going

I’ve waited so long to get to this place
Tracing each new line on my face
I’ve waited so long for this moment to come
Just want to go out and get me some

These are the days that would one day come
These are the nights when my mind goes numb
This is the place I wanted to be
This is the face that once was me

I’ve waited so long to get to this place
Tracing each new line on my face
I’ve waited so long for this moment to come
Just want to go out and get me some

Get me some
Get me some
Get me some
--
Lyrics ©2004 Andrew L. Jackson
Track Name: Cut the Cord
Lyrics:

I get stuck in a rut
‘cause I don’t want to cut the cord
I get scared of what
I think I can’t afford

So many things I’d rather do
Than stay right here and placate you
So many things I’d rather do
Than stay right here and placate you

Too many days and nights
I just get bored
The passions in my heart
Just get ignored

I wish that I could follow through
On dreams that I’ve alluded to
Wish that I could follow through
On dreams that I’ve alluded to

I hold back just because I think it’s right
But I really want to have my way tonight

By standing still I fall behind
I’m going home if you don’t mind
Standing still I fall behind
I’m moving on if you don’t mind

I get stuck in a rut
‘cause I don’t want to cut the cord
I get scared of what
I think I can’t afford

So many things I’d rather do
Than stay right here and placate you

I wish that I could follow through
On dreams that I’ve alluded to

By standing still I fall behind
I’m going home if you don’t mind
--
Lyrics ©2001 Andrew L. Jackson
Track Name: Inside My Head
Lyrics:

I only want to be remembered
I just don’t want you to forget
My only dream is to keep dreaming
I haven’t got to that place yet

My only hope is to keep trying
I only want the best for us
I just don’t know why you are crying
I haven’t lost my will to trust

And yet
There comes a day
When there’s simply nothing more to be said
And yet
I won’t forget
All the days that you were mine
There’s still so much of you inside my head

The madness of a moment lost in time
Locked in a box and safely kept
If only you were here there’s no denying
I’d watch your every movement as you slept

And every time the moon reveals a mystery
And every wish that hasn’t yet come true
Will find its own solution in my memory
The history of us, the mystery of you

And yet
There comes a day
When there’s simply nothing more to be said
And yet
I won’t forget
All the days that you were mine
There’s still so much of you inside my head
--
Lyrics ©2000 Andrew L. Jackson
Track Name: Momentum
Lyrics:

So you've lost your momentum
And they'll say you've lost your voice
But you're the author of your own life
And you've made your choice

You know who you are
And what do they know
Anyway anyway anyway anyway

So now you can do your own thing
Now you let the telephone ring
Now you don't think to look back
Now you throw more papers on the stack

You know what to do
Yeah, what do they know
Anyway anyway anyway anyway

You know who you are
And what do they know
Anyway anyway anyway anyway

So you've lost your momentum
And you've got no place to get to
But you're the master of your own life
With no one to report to

You know what you want
And what do they know
Anyway anyway anyway anyway

You know who you are
And what do they know
Anyway anyway anyway anyway

So you've lost your momentum
And they'll say you've lost your voice
But you're the author of your own life
And you've made your choice
--
Lyrics ©2004 Andrew L. Jackson
Track Name: Full of Emptiness
Lyrics:

Dream of nothing
Full of emptiness
Wanting something
Not yet ready to confess

Feeling ready
To face nothingness
Absent-minded
Semi-consciousness
Semi-consciousness

This is where the poet finds his voice
This is where the writer finds his muse
This is where we let the space between
Take another form and turn it loose

Quiet moments
In a lovely daze
Simply waiting
Hours and hours, days and days

Trust in something
That the cards you’re dealt
Hold the key to
What lay inside yourself
What lay inside yourself

This is where the poet finds his voice
This is where the writer finds his muse
This is where we let the space between
Take another form and turn it loose

What would you say
If I told you
You hold everything inside of you

Dream of nothing
Full of emptiness
Wanting something
Semi-consciousness
Semi-consciousness
--
Lyrics ©2003 Andrew L. Jackson
Track Name: Dreaming I'm Awake
Lyrics:

Searching for a place
You can call your own
Searching for a sound
Searching for a tone
Dreaming I’m awake
Sudden change of view
Dreaming I’m alone
Dreaming I’m with you

Taking it in stride
Going for the ride
Stepping out a while
Going back inside
Stories to be told
Memories to hold
Sit back and relax
Come in from the cold

Dreaming I’m alone
Sudden change of view
Dreaming I’m awake
Dreaming I’m with you
Dreaming I’m alone
Sudden change of view
Dreaming I’m awake
Dreaming I’m with you
--
Lyrics ©1999 Andrew L. Jackson
Track Name: The Surrealist
Lyrics:

Brick wall smashing
Party crashing
Everyone cashing in on a phrase

30’s dashing
Dandy bashing
Old teeth gnashing:
“It’s just a phase”

It’s something he’s going though
And we’re going with him
It’s something we’re going through
He’s out on a limb

Lightning striking
Kool-Aid spiking
Discreet mic’ing and filming up close

Girlfriends talking
Toucans squawking
Boyfriends stalking, burning the toast

It’s something he’s going though
And we’re going with him
It’s something he’s going through
And we’re going with him
It’s something he’s going though
The Surrealist is his own victim
It’s something he’s going through
He’s out on a limb

Do you ever wonder where all this is leading
Do you ever wonder where you’re going to
Or are you just going along for the ride
Without a care where it gets you

It’s something he’s going though
And we’re going with him
It’s something we’re going through
He’s out on a limb

It’s something he’s going though
The Surrealist is his own victim
It’s something we’re going through
We’re out on a limb
--
Lyrics ©2003 Andrew L. Jackson
Track Name: Brainstew
Lyrics:

I think my brain is melting
But that ain’t nothing new
I’ll stir it up hot in a melting pot
To serve a nice brain stew

My legs are made of rubber
And my arms are made of glue
My hands are all that I have left
To write this verse for you

So what the hell am I doing here
And what am I going to do
I’m staring out these windows
At this never-changing view

My bed is like a river
And my body floats away
So long my friends
I’ll make amends
Some other winsome day

I really should get out more
But I sleep the whole day through
There must be some way of escape
Or multiple undo

So what if my brain has melted
I didn’t need it anyway
I’ve got cellular memory
To get me through the day

So what the hell am I doing here
And what am I going to do
I’m staring out these windows
At this never-changing view

My bed is like a river
And my body floats away
So long my friends
I’ll make amends
Some other winsome day

I think my brain is melting now
But that ain’t nothing new
I’ll stir it up hot in a melting pot
To serve a nice brain stew

I think my brain is melting yeah
But that ain’t nothing new
I’ll stir it up hot in a melting pot
To serve a nice brain stew
--
Lyrics ©2002 Andrew L. Jackson
Track Name: This Will Make You Beautiful Again
Lyrics:

Piece it together, quick, before it falls apart
Pull it together, quick, before it fades away
We’re just here for a spell, and then we’re on our way
I’m prepared to take hell for all I’ve got to say

I don’t care if you don’t too
We’re better off this way
I don’t know if you don’t too
It’s easier that way
The message should be very clear
You shouldn’t have to think it through
Beauty is attainable
Come meet the new and better you

I thought there was a message, but it was lost along the way
I thought there was a reason for what I’d meant to say
But all pretense is gone now for wanting something more
Freedom is another word for nothing to ignore

Peace of mind’s not hard to find
You blank yours, I’ll erase mine
Welcome to infinity
I’m sure you’ll like it fine
Had your piece and spoke your mind
Now it’s getting hard to find
Who you are and why you care
Wonder were you ever there

What did you expect – it’s me, your lifelong friend
Just sit back and close your eyes
This will make you beautiful again

Why do you believe – you’ll break if you don’t bend
Ready, get set, on your mark
This will make you beautiful again

You knew that it would come to this, but not how it would end
Now you get a second chance
And this will make you beautiful again

What did you expect – it’s me, your lifelong friend
Just sit back and close your eyes
This will make you beautiful again

This will make you beautiful again
This will make you beautiful again
This will make you beautiful again
This will make you beautiful again
--
Lyrics ©2003 Andrew L. Jackson